A New York Times Editors’ Choice Book
& – Shortlisted for the 2020 Lambda Literary Award

“Heart-stopping…Although this is a personal memoir, it is also a memoir of work. Work helped Dube find himself. And work allowed him to live a life he could be proud of…Dube gives his readers the substantial gift of hope. The sentiment is, in fact, the spine of his memoir.”

Sonia Faleiro | The New York Times

“A public health visionary gets personal with a powerful exploration of ‘the beguiling possibilities of gender beyond the conventional bipolarity of male and female, and the mysterious, limitless permutations of sexual desire.’…A gripping memoir about a gay man with feet in India and the U.S. as well as a book about how to put together a life.”

Kirkus Reviews

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Shortlisted for the Crossword Jury Award
& – Long-listed for the Tata Book of the Year Award

“Journalist-activist Siddharth Dube’s memoir…is both a personal and political journey. In recounting his own painful realisation that he is different, he provides a scathing indictment of the education system, particularly the tony Doon School, of the country’s policy on AIDS, the political establishment’s attitude to homosexuality and the deep-seated hypocrisy surrounding prostitution not just in India but also in the West…His ability to relate to others who are oppressed is moving and memorable.”

Kaveree Bamzai | India Today

“The year’s best books….journalist Siddharth Dube’s brave, sensitively told coming-of-age account as an upper class gay man and the persecution he faced.”

Sunil Sethi | Business Standard

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Winner of two 2021 Laadli Media Awards for gender-sensitive investigative journalism

THERE WERE BREATHTAKING SIGNS in that heady era, when India was celebrating 50 years of independence and a new millennium shone ahead, that a revolution was underway for the country’s sex workers. In November 1997, some five thousand women, hijras and men who sold sex reached Kolkata from far-flung parts for a national conference, the first of its kind, organised by the city’s pathbreaking sex workers’ collective—the Durbar Mahila Samanwaya Committee, or “indomitable women’s collaborative committee.”

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